Englewood up to no good.

I want to go to New York so badly.
Guys say a lot of things but I wonder if most even mean it. How can a guy straight up tell a girl they aren't pretty? Maybe I just have trouble trusting anyone. I guess that's why I don't have friends right?
Yes, this weekend was Thanksgiving. But I hate turkey and ham and everything about it. The real holiday for me was Black Friday! It was amazing. I didn't really buy anything but I did watch people at their best. Watching people wait in line for hours in the cold to get a tv on sale. It's great. Well I did get 2 pairs of jeans and 5 long sleeve shirts. The mall was surprisingly not as full as I thought it would be at 5 in the morning.
So remember when I put a picture of that creepy goblin shark picture in my first blog? Well, I saw this documentary on them and their jaws stick out from their face when they take a bite. It's gross.
The Cleveland show is dumb. Family guy is the only thing Seth McFarland has done successfully.
So I've really been thinking about college, and I've realized I really don't want to go to college. Being at school depresses me. Why would I go back for another 4 years to work even more? I imagine killing myself one night before a final. I'm thinking of running away to Goa, India or anywhere away from Vegas. I really just want to see the world. I don't want to be locked up in a room anymore. I don't even know how I'm going to survive my last year of high school.
I'm breaking out :/
Those Gap commercials where these people are break dancing are extremely annoying. Now they have one with little girls rapping about boots. Commercials in general are pretty annoying. Some are entertaining before they become annoying. Others should have never been thought of.
My ears hurt. They aren't used to wearing heavier dangling earrings.
So this someone is so in love with this person. This person rarely thinks about the someone. The someone saves themselves for the person because deep down the someone feels that one day they can be with the person. But this person doesn't save themselves. This person forgets about all the things someone has done and how much someone loves them. The person only realizes this when their with a different person who's wrong for the person. The person is left alone and the only one for them is the someone. So having no one else, the person gets with the someone. Isn't that messed up for the someone?
Carl's mommy makes amazing banana pumpkin muffins :D


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Octopus isn't the same thing as Squid

It's really cold outside. I don't like it when it's cold because my toes usually have a problem getting warm and it's really annoying when the rest of me is fine but my freezing toes. Yes, even with fuzzy socks on.
I've been looking for some tattoo ideas for me. So far nothing in particular. I don't want a lame tattoo. I kind of wanted a bird tattoo but I can't really think of one that someone doesn't already have. I really really wanted the Bayside bird on my side but I looked on their myspace profile that they have millions of people with that idea. The best one I really want is a giant squid on my side. I'm also going to get the scar of my ankle tattoo'ed in purple. The scar is a heart so getting a purple heart will make it something out of bravery.
I really hate it when my dogs like my pillow.
Did you know the lead singer of Blur ( that 'woo hoo' song) is also the singer in The Gorillaz?! I love The Gorillaz. I like some what weird music. I don't really care though. It puts me in a good mood.
So I got that New Super Mario for the Wii, and it's pretty amazing. It came out just in time too. I finished both season dvd's of Inuyasha I bought.
Don't you feel kind of like your life sucks when a cartoon has a cuter love story than you? I do. I guess my 'love' story is cute. A lot of people tell me it's cute how I liked Carl for so long before we went out. Thanks, but those were horrible times for me. Lucky me, Carl was popular and went out with the whole city before he even considered me. I used to go to shows alone just to see him there. Yea pretty pathetic. I'd tell you the rest but it's too long and not school appropriate.
I do love Carl though. Don't get me wrong. I just wish he did more cuter things. But, like most men, he doesn't really get it. So it's whatever.
I saw that Pink Floyd movie 'The Wall' and it's insane. I don't even know what the story was supposed to be about. What I got from it was a guy with a messed up child hood is falling apart and depressed and even willing to kill himself with the on going war? I really have no idea. I really liked the scenes where drawings kept transforming and morphing into other drawings.
I want mac and cheese. I'm pretty hungry. and it's 2:00 AM.
I think tomorrow I'm going to go venture the town with my camera. It's been a while since I've done that. I haven't really been able to take pictures because I don't have a computer to save my stuff in. Not to mention I have to make space for school pictures too.
Isn't weird how music can help you? If it weren't for a few bands I really might not be alive. Bayside and The Honorary Title and Jimmy Eat World and so many others. I don't know these people, but they've helped me through hard times. I just wish I could tell them myself how much I am grateful to them. I guess just buying CDs and going to their shows is the best I can do.




This wall is covered in lyrics and quotes. Some really meaningful. Some just for comedy. Either way, it's my wall and I almost want to bring it with me when I move out. The center is my hand and Carl's hand. 'Forever and Always' by Bullet for my Valentine is our song. I guess that's all I can really say about this.Oh and that random black rectangle is just a censor.

Butter Toast

So if you have been wondering what's up with google and Sesame Street in the name, It's actually Sesame's 40th anniversary. Can you believe that. I think the cookie monster was cute. Elmo was kind of creepy.

I honestly don't really know what to write this week. I've been to depressed to really think about anything.

Have you ever hear of anyone telling you they spend hours online? Well I really do sometimes. When I get the chance I spend hours and hours on Ebay. I don't know why Ebay. I guess it's because I get to see all the stuff people have to offer. Maybe it's because I'm a girl and like to shop. I'm not the type of girl that really spends money on clothes though. I usually buy anime or music stuff. Yea it's pretty sad how I spend hours doing that.

You know what store is pretty interesting? Ross. They have some of the most randomest stuff there. You can find mostly clothes there but if you look in the back you'll find all sorts of home stuff. I actually kinda like Ross.

Double Stuffed Oreos with some thai tea boba sounds so amazing right now. Now that I think about it, I haven't had Oreos in a while. Maybe I'll get some tomorrow while I wait for another dreadful day at school.

Did you know Vegas' Stratosphere rides were on the Travel Channel's Most Extreme Trill Rides? It was the first they talked about. I have problems pronouncing the word 'trill'. I've always wanted to go on those rides. I remember my dad was going to take me when I was like 10 and I was finally tall enough, but my younger brothers weren't so I wasn't able to.

It sucks being short.

I really like soups. My boyfriend doesn't, which is weird because he's part Russian. I think soups are amazing. I love the warmth of it. I don't like American soup from a can all that much though. I like home made soup like my family makes. My family makes this soup with chucks of beef, platanoes (I think it's plantains in English), potato, carrots, cabbage, onion, corn, squash, and other stuff I can't really remember. But it's super yummy. It's called Sopa de Res (beef soup).

I don't eat chicken but I love chicken soup without the chicken.

Oh, did I mention I was Max for halloween? The kid with the crown.

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Dr. Pepper slupee

I finally got my Inuyasha season one AND two :DDD

So Halloween was pretty alright. I dressed up as Max from 'Where the Wild Thing Are'. I made my own costume and stayed up til 3 am working on it. I have to say it came out pretty good.

Did you know there's a real city of Townsville in Austrilla? The city of Townsville as in the city where the Powerpuff girls live. I remember I used to watch that show all the time. It was like my favorite show. Another show I used to really like was Doug. I thought it was so cute how he liked Patty Mayonaise. I always wanted a guy to like me in a cute way like that.

Ever seen a movie called 'Rocket Science'? It's about this kid from New Jersey with a studdering problem that joins a debate team. It sounds lame but it's actually kinda sad. The kid is a loser with no friends and can't order the right food at lunch. He has family issues and only joins the debate team because this girl flirts with him into it. Not only does he do it for the girl, but she leaves him in the end for an Idian guy on another debate team. Heart broken and still lost for words he ends up just accepting himself.

Don't you hate it when your leg, or other limb, falls asleep? I really hate it. It feels like you don't have that limb and instead there's something being pushed out through your skin. I guess pins and needles right? In 5th grade, during music class, my leg fell asleep and the bell rung and we started walking out and half way down the hall do I relieze that my shoe was off and still in the music room! It was so embarrassing.

I wish I could just travel the world instead of being stuck at a desk. I think a person could learn more if they were exposed to different cultures and people. But no, I'm stuck reading about it from a book. I think that's what I'm going to end up doing instead of going to college. Even though my whole family will probably disapprove.

I really like the sound a dog makes when they walk. haha.

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